No sir, I am not in agreement with you, even if you are in complete agreement with me. And yes, you are saying what I had just said half a minute ago, but you are still saying bullshit. I didn’t ask you to say what you are saying or what you have just said, and even if I did, it doesn’t mean anything, its still bull-shit.

What the heck! I won’t allow you to do what I told you to do, just a while ago. I will hurt you if you don’t do what I told you to do. And I will hurt you if you do what I told you to do. Its all the same.

And, yes it is illogical. I never claimed it to be logical and even if I did (and that too just half a minute ago, or may be even half a second ago) it doesn’t matter. Don’t give me No excuses! And when I say No I mean NO. Don’t give me No excuses even if I asked for one.

And, yes I feel like god. Do what you wish, for I won’t let you do anything that you wish (or for that matter even what I wish). Black out or come hunting for me, to me its all the same. I hate you now, for I have loved you more than I have ever loved myself. I hate myself for letting you make me what you have made me, and I hate you for what you have made out of me.

Yes I hate you. And, yes I hate all – for everybody made me what I am. And by all I mean ALL.

I am a hater, a born-hater. There wasn’t a tree in this world, I wouldn’t mow down. There wasn’t a pig in this world I wouldn’t chop off. There wasn’t a cow in this world I wouldn’t carve out. There wasn’t a home in the world I wouldn’t burn down. Yes I am angry. No better still I am insane. But that doesn’t stop me from doing all this, does it. Its war between everybody else and me.

And I am going to lose it and I know it, for not only I am at war with everybody else, but I am at war with my own self. Yes! I am fighting for a lost cause. But what is much more worse is that I don’t think I even have a cause.